im crying

ayah, mak. the one who cn makes me cry. only THEM ! ayah, i noe once i broke it, fr ever n evr i nvr get it bck. his TRUST. strt frm angh thn alg aftr tht me. we nvr make u proud. isn't ? kinda little bit weird now. dulu. we laugh together. u share anythng wth me. u make jokes wth me. u tell me evrthng bout ur feelin, ayah. now. everythng is wrong bout me in frnt of ur eyes. u dnt wnna talk to me anymore. to look into ur eyes ayah, such a really bad dream fr me. i noe u love me. n i love u too ayah. u're my hero. u such a best role model fr any daddy in ths world. when u said, 'aku tak bole lah tgk muke kau ni ' , 'takde sorg pon yg nyenangkan perot' i looked into eyes. ur nose became red, and i saw ur tears.. i was saying in my heart 'TUHAN, klw di saat ni smpai ajalku, Maafkanlah aku.ampunkanlah dosa2 ku.redhokan lah pemergianku.' ayah, it's hard fr me to live in ths world without u by my side. i noe u really sad.and disspointed wth me. but ayah. i dnt wanna lose u. i mss to hug u..make jokes wth u..

I AM SORRY, AYAH.